|About the author: My name is Meryem El Idrissi. I am 18 years old and come from Morocco. I have stammered since a very young age . I’ll be in University, this year as the first year, because I just finished my Baccalaureat. I’m a member of the Moroccan Stuttering Association.|
My name is Meryem, but most of my friends call me Mery. I’m an 18 year-old girl, a University student, and the best thing is that I am a person who stammers (PWS). Maybe you may think that I’m odd, thinking “having a stammer is a best thing to happen in someone’s life”.
Honestly, it is. For me, if I didn’t have a stammer, I think that I would not be where I am now, and that I would not have achieved what I have during all these years.
Like many other teens who have a stammer, I experienced lots of bad situations, including being laughed at, being in front of the “curious gaze“, and people making fun of me. My last years, starting from my primary school, were a real hell! Seriously, and without any exaggeration.
I even heard my teachers’ sarcastic words about my stammer. But as a primary school child, I didn’t know how to deal with that, so I just cried. Crying was my only relief or maybe the one and only weapon to fight the bullies.
Stammering is not easy to live with, but it is not impossible.
Yes, I think that you are asking yourselves Does she really accept her stammer completely?. The answer is No! I still haven’t accepted it completely yet, but only one aspect remains. Maybe you already heard it in my podcast with the great lady Pamela Mertz: that aspect is relationships. I never had a boyfriend, and I’m still afraid of having one.
After having many ups and downs like most of the people who stammer, I realized that the best solution to be happy with a stammer is accepting it. And that’s what I did.
Stammering can never be an obstacle for me anymore in my career. Here I can elaborate why I said that it’s the best thing that happens in my life. Because as an ordinary girl, I would never be the first in my class if I didn’t have a stammer. And I would never do the best presentation in my class if I didn’t have a stammer. Stammering made me a harder working student, maybe to prove the bullies wrong and show that I am just as intelligent as anyone, or maybe even more. So generally, I’m happy to be a PWS.
Finally, I can say that having a stammer has its good side, too. So just be yourself and live with the difference.
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