My Stuttering – a rough journey to knowledge (Christopher Bongmoyong)

christopherAbout the author: I am Christopher Bongmoyong.  I am born to a family of five; three of us stutter. Neither of  my parents stuttered nor our grandparents.  I am a covert stutterer and have been living in it all my life.  I am a holder of a diploma in building construction and still into job seeking and believe in a meaningful employment in due time.  I am a member of the Speak Clear Association of Cameroon (SCAC).  Today I am very excited to share my story as a person living with stuttering.

I was born a stutterer and have lived with stuttering all my life.  I come from a family of five of which three of us stutter; me, my younger brother and my sister.  Neither my mother nor my father stuttered.  As a matter of fact, stuttering has so much affected my life that it has affected every part of my life.  We were teased and bullied as kids, but my own case was different because my stutter was more severe.  My stuttering totally changed my pattern of doing things.  I became a stubborn child, because no one was ever patient to listen to me, or wanted to know how I feel.   I avoided all speaking situations and would be very offended when I was put under pressure to talk, especially in case I need to defend myself.  Since the severity of my stuttering was perceived by my parents as a sign of guilt and stubbornness, I had no choice but to remain stubborn, because no one was helping me out.  It was so horrible and my life kept on sinking and sinking in depression.  Life was so difficult for me to the extent that I did not even have a dream, no life goal and no focus.

My younger brother and I were registered in school the same year, because there was no one to take care of me by then. We were very excited about going to school as we knew it was an opportunity to spend much time outside the house, which would mean no more going to the stream to fetch water, go to the farm to cultivate or harvest or go out fetching firewood in the forest for cooking.  Those were our normal routines at home.  Little did we know school would be a nightmare and an unsettling place for us.  We were teased and bullied by peers each time we were involved in any oral exercise like reading and answering questions in class.  Because of these issues we had to change our seats and go to the back of the class where we wouldn’t even see the class board well.

I remember with pain in my heart the day my younger brother was given 10 very hard strokes with the cane on his butt in a very cool morning temperature of 30o just because he was accused falsely whistling and distracting peers while the national Anthem was going on.  This act of punishment was unbearable and we decided to leave school without the knowledge of our parents.  We would leave the house to go to school but would divert to the nearby bushes and play all day to return only in the afternoon exactly at closing time.  This continued for the rest of the school year until a hunter that knew our family saw us repeatedly and reported home.  Our parents were both very disappointed with us and handed us to the school authorities for punishment.    A punishment we would never forget.

We continued school the next year but because we no longer loved school, our progress and intelligence slowed down and our focus had been messed up.

My school life was on and off when I left my parents to continue school in the next town 170 miles away from home.   My school environment was so turbulent, as it took me time to get use to a new environment. At the age of 13,  I was already taking alcohol.  This was the only way for me to cope. That remained my permanent stuttering coping strategy to help me overcome my fear of stuttering.  This has all the time only helped to postpone my problem from one hour to the next.  Since I needed money to buy beer and needed an source of income, I started stealing my parent`s money.  I would steal money that was meant for our school fees and as poor as my parents were, they would keep us home until they raised some other funds for us to return to school.  Many times I would go to school drunk with beer and sometimes during exams.  I was being suspended from school several times and was finally dismissed.  When I was dismissed, after some weeks, I gradually began seeing the importance of my education.  Frustration was increasing as I became more of an alcoholic. All the money my parents sent to me for school fees and rent was spent by drinking.  I was borrowing books and lived with friends, moving from one house to another.  At some point I began attending classes clandestinely.  I would jump in and out of the class through the window to attain classes with the help of some friends who sympathized with me.

My life was miserable.  Our parents became concerned and began doing research for a remedy.  They tried all traditional methods of treatment like drinking running water from a snail, eating a type of grasshopper and performing some spiritual sacrifices but all was to no avail.

I struggled under very hard conditions and luckily passed my high school technical certificate in building construction.  I knew things were no longer going to be the same and could feel it was time for my freedom, because school life was just too terrible.  I just wanted to get a job and start up a new life.  I was so excited, but never knew I was getting to a more challenging part of my life.  I had just won a battle, but not knowing I was to face a war for the rest of my career life.  I would not even count the number of times I was sent home during interviews, because there was no way I could speak to the selection panel without drinking beer.  Even to this day I have never succeeded to sit down before a panel for an interview. I have always been sent home by security or the receptionist.  It was always evident when I had been drinking beer. Even a kid would know from my countenance.  Red eyes and wrinkled forehead were signs everyone would clearly see and also the way I would speak.

When I couldn’t get my career going, I got into drug dealing.  I was buying and selling marijuana and it got me much money which I could not even use responsibly.  When people took advantage of me and started duping me I diverted and joined a friend who introduced me to the circulation of counterfeit money.  These issues and many more finally got me into jail. I served a jail term for almost a year.  While in jail my younger brother had started doing research on stuttering help.  He fortunately got in touch with Mr Joseph Lukong, the Coordinator of the Speak Clear Association of Cameroon (SCAC), joined the association, spoke to Joseph about me and began receiving help through numerous resources that the SCAC got through the International Stuttering association (ISA) and the Stuttering Foundation of America (SFA).

When I was freed from jail, after a couple of weeks I was invited to a recovery course in 2002, organized by the SCAC.  I was so excited, because I thought the speech specialist came with some oral medicine that would quickly help to just get rid of my stuttering. It was not until the day of the course that I discovered it was to be another classroom affaire that was again supposed to be even be more interactive in nature.  The old shadow of my past school life started running through my brain and my spirit was broken.  With encouragement from my brother I decided to stay.  A few minutes after the start of the course I was no longer able to hold it.  The fear was getting worse. I smuggled out of the group and got into a nearby bar and immediately sipped two bottles of beer and felt geared up for the course and quickly returned.  I could be seen from a distance and no one could doubt what I had just done.  Eventually I was sent home.  Another bad day.  That was the opportunity I had and I squandered it and have never had such an opportunity again. My brother was already sick and tired of my behaviors.  On my 48th birthday – the very fateful day, I had just returned home in the morning.  Someone told me happy birthday.  It was a surprise.  I never even knew  it.  I sat down on my bed, soaked by alcohol I had drank at a party the night before.  It was my 48th birthday already.  So striking, I sorrowfully asked myself,  ‘What kind of life have I got; no job, no wife, no kid, no home’. It was a terrible moment for me.  I was prepared to end my life that day, but by God`s grace I had just given myself a little more time to reflect about my life.   At midday I received a call I least expected through a friend’s phone, from my brother who travelled to Atlanta for the World Congress of People Who Stutter.  I never knew he travelled.  I was touched by the way he spoke to me for the first time in my life.  He introduced a young lady by the name Samantha Gennusa of the USA, one out of 800 participants of the congress, who heard of my story and became interested in talking to me. Wow!!  She had had the same life experience as me.  I began having a sensation of hope running through my veins and into my heart, just because I heard someone had suffered like me. I immediately made up my mind to do something about my stuttering for the first time with all my heart.  From that day I have not felt the same again.  I am in communication with this lady and she is just too great.  I am coming out of my shell and excited to push out this comfort zone.

My regards to all the people who stutter in the world as you look forward to celebrating the International Stuttering Awareness Day.  Your concerns and questions will be highly appreciated.  I will be travelling 150 miles into the town to get better internet services.  Keep your concerns coming.

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My Stuttering – a rough journey to knowledge (Christopher Bongmoyong) — 44 Comments

  1. Hello Christopher,
    Thanks for sharing your story. I never cease to be astounded by the resilience of people who stutter. Best,
    Rob

  2. Hi Christopher – thanks for sharing your story and journey. I think it’s incredible that Samantha reached out to you and that you are still in contact. I too was at the World Congress in Atlanta and it was a great experience. Hopefully you’ll get that opportunity in your journey to attend a Congress.
    You said you are going to do something about your stuttering. What are your plans? -Pam

    • Hi Pam
      Thanks for your comments/question. How i wish there could be a world congress in Africa closer enough to my country for me to be able to attain seeing how much it cost to go across oceans to attain congress the other end of the world. I have started going through some material online on the NSA and ISA websites but have a problem of internet accessibility. Through Samantha i am considering talking online therapy at AIS.
      Christopher

  3. Hello Christopher, Thank you sincerely for sharing your story. I am moved by the challenges you encountered and the interactions you shared that truly reflect a global community. I am glad you are in touch with ISA and SFA. You may want to consider contact with the International Fluency Association (IFA) as well (http://www.theifa.org/). Joseph Lukong is dear friend of mine. Although he now lives in the USA, I’m sure he would be glad to hear from you. I have fond memories of my visit to Douala in 2005 for the first African Stuttering Conference. I met with many people and left with new friends. I still remember how much I enjoyed interacting with the members of SCAC. I am so glad that you are participating in this ISAD Conference and discovering that there are people all over the world who can relate to your experience and are happy to share their experiences with you. As you know, “If you stutter, you are not alone.” And congratulations for completing your diploma in building construction. I know that yours is a much sought after skill, particularly in Cameroon. Kind regards and good luck, David

    • Hi David

      Thanks a lot for your comments and the concern you have for people who stutter in Africa. I really have no reason why i was not present during the African congress in Douala. At that time i had not made any decision to do something about my stuttering. I will surely be talking to Joe in due course. It is really a great experience learning about different views and experiences of people who stutter in this forum. Thanks again for stopping to drop this words of encouragement.
      Christopher

  4. Hi Christopher,

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am a graduate student in speech pathology and I am currently taking a Assessment and Treatment of Stuttering course. Your story was very moving and it sheds a light on some of those lasting effects that stuttering can have on an individual. Some of those negative reactions from people around you are some of the reactions that we learn about within our class. I am wondering how big of a role the reactions others have are based on culture? Do you or have you experienced a difference while traveling?

    • Hi Msaric

      Thank you for your comments and question. I glad you found the long lasting effects and reactions to my stuttering relevant to what you are studying. The way people react to people who stutter in Cameroon to the few places i have visited is much the same. I my country when people move to the towns they form communities of different tribes. Which means that every where i go i need to stay where my people are for easy communication and association. This means that we move with our culture and in the cause of that we always meet the same people with the same ideology. Unfortunately, i have never traveled out of Cameroon to really witness any difference on the other hand.

      Jonas

  5. Hey Christopher,

    Thank you for sharing your powerful story! Each individual has their own unique story and it sounds like you are on the right track with great and positive things to come. You mentioned that three out of five of your family members stuttered. How is each individual who stutters dealing with it in their daily lives? Thank you in advance for your reply! Geoff

    • Hi Geoff

      Thanks so much for your comment and question. Yes, my younger brother and sister stutter. My sister’s stutter is mild and so she has learnt naturally to deal with it. When she gets emotional she stutters the more. She has developed her coping skills to always stay away from what makes her upset. My brother is like an expert stutterer now. He is my primary coach. He has done some therapies and he is doing very great. He attended the world congress of People who Stutter in Atlanta and brought back huge testimonies that was an encouragement to me.

  6. Hello Christopher,
    Thank you so much for sharing your story! It is uplifting to read that you’re making such positive changes in your life. As you mentioned, you as well as your brother and sister stutter. Although you mentioned your stutter was more severe, was it helpful growing up in a household surrounded by others who stuttered? Thank you in advance for your response! -Emmery

    • Hi Emmery

      Thanks so much for reading and for your comments. As kids we never had access to the right treatment and our parents became bother about the issue only when we were already in school. I was the one who use to be teased the most because my stutter was severe and moreover i was never trusted by my parents. Though i was the eldest i always preferred my brother to speak on our behalf in public because each time people would ask me to repeat and it always made me feel bad. I was always with my brother and we did everything in common.

  7. Hi Christopher,

    I am a student studying speech pathology in the United States. I found your story so powerful and inspiring. I am so sad to hear about the challenges you faced during school. Did you feel like your teachers in school could have helped you more? Did they ever try to address the bullying or talk to you about stuttering to try to make school less challenging?

    Thank you for your reply!
    McKenzie

    • Hi McKenzie

      Thanks for your comments/question. McKenzie it was all the opposite. Non of my teachers tried to help me instead he would try to ridicule me so that my peers should laugh.

      When my teachers would not ask me oral questions in class i could feel better. I was not actually dull. I was good in maths but my teacher would scarcely ask me to solve problems on the board for the class. I think if i were not involved verbal exercises or verbal exercises with yes or no answers it could have been better. Also, if i were engaged in non verbal exercises my school live could have been totally a lot better.

  8. Christopher,
    What a mix of emotions throughout your story! I empathized with you as you described your experiences. I am in studying to become a SLP, so I’m curious, did you ever encounter a SLP throughout your journey? Or was someone to relate to, such as Samantha, what allowed you to overcome the impact stuttering had on your life? If you haven’t seen a SLP, what is your perception of how they can influence the lives of PWS? Please share the most important take away point for future SLPs. I wish you the best in your endeavors.

    Thank you for sharing,

    Natalie

    • Hi Natalie

      Thanks so much Natalie for your comments. Thank you for having such feelings for me. I am grateful. As I said in my paper I have never talked to any SLP before. I think if I had met a SLP as young as a kid my life would never be the same because my SLP would eventually involve my parents and my teachers in the process and my school life could have been a great success.

      SLP are able to shape the lives of PWS positively cause they would create a environment friendly for them. Teach them how to surmount their challenges and keep on being confident of their lives.

  9. Hello, Christopher.
    I am a graduate student in the US, currently taking a course on stuttering. I am so grateful that you’ve chosen to share your story on this ISAD forum. It is an incredibly powerful thing to share your story. It’s places like this, and stories like yours that help students understand what life might be like for a person who stutters. I’m glad to see that you’ve been receiving so much support now that you’re ready to step outside of your comfort zone. Since you answered my question in another comment, I’ll just say good luck and best wishes on your journey.
    -Stephanie

    • Hi Stephanie

      Thank you so much for your comments. After I wrote the article it was like I lifted up a burden from my body. By this I am confirming your statement “it is an incredibly powerful thing to share your story”. Best of luck in your education.

  10. Hello Christopher,

    I am also a graduate student in the US studying Speech-Language Pathology. I am currently taking a course on stuttering and I find it so helpful to learn from people’s personal experiences with stuttering. I also find it very interesting to learn about other cultures and how they react to things like stuttering. I have a few questions for you about your story. First I am wondering if you or your brother ever tried to explain your stuttering in school and if anyone was receptive or sympathetic to you? My second question is about your struggle with alcoholism. I am wondering if you find alcoholism common among people who stutter as a coping strategy? Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so glad you have found support, and I wish you the best of luck with everything!

    -Michele

    • Hi Michele

      Thanks so much for your comments and questions. I am glad your found my article useful to you as a student.

      For your first question the answer is No. We have never talked about our stuttering to any body in school. It could have been awesome if we talked to someone in school but we never thought of that and even my parents too never thought of it. I don’t know why. May be they thought much of the problem was us. Perhaps if we had other cases of stuttering in the school we could have been able to benefit from who ever would talk about it to the school. No body ever sympathized with us.

      I already became addicted to alcohol in the process of using it as a coping strategy. Most people knew me as someone who is drunk from 1st to 31st of each month. I have never met with a stutterer who is like me and so I won’t know how much it works as a coping strategy for others.

      Thanks again for your concern. I hope I answered you.

  11. Hello Christopher,
    What a brave and touching story. Like a few others I am a graduate student in Speech-language pathology. Your experience really impressed upon me how stuttering can affect someone’s life in all aspects. I am learning about the prejudices that people who stutter suffer from but actually hearing a first hand account of your story made it real for me. I was wondering how you feel about your stutter now? I hope you find power in your stutter because you have such a compelling story that I feel could help so many others. You have already helped me in having a better understanding of how a stutter can impact a person’s life.
    -Nancy

    • Hi Nancy

      Thanks you so much for your touching comments. I am glad you found my paper useful as a SLP student.

      Well Nancy I have never talk about my stuttering to anyone or written about my stuttering. I after wrote this story I felt as if a burden was lifted off from me and with the interaction I have had in this forum from the beginning of the conference I believe my live and perception of things will not remain the same. Though I still stutter the same but I am building a stronger self confidence already.

  12. Mr. Bongmoyong,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is very eye opening the impacts stuttering can have on someone’s life and everyday functioning. It is inspiring that you were able to get out of your depressed state and are connecting to others and finally feel like you are able to participate in social situations. Thank you again so much for sharing!

    • Hi Friend

      Thanks so much for your comments. I am really very excited now interacted with such great people like you. Thanks again

  13. Christopher,
    Wow, your story is so powerful and touching! I am a speech-pathology graduate student in the United States currently taking a course on stuttering. It’s so hard to hear of the struggles you and your siblings faced in school, and then throughout your life, but a beautiful story of hope and perseverance has come out of it. My question for you is do you know if schools in your area have changed at all since you attended? Have they become more accommodating for child who stutter, or is there still that discrimination and lack of knowledge about the subject? I wish you nothing but the best as you continue your journey!
    Olivia

    • Hi Olivia

      Thanks for your comments/questions. Your comments really mean so much to me. During my time in school, life was really very unsettling for me and my siblings. Mr Lukong Joseph who has a serious problem of stuttering in his family after a lot of research around the year 2000 brought together stutterers in Cameroon to form the Speak Clear Association of Cameroon (SCAC)to be the voice of stutterers in Cameroon. Since its creation it has created much stuttering awareness around the Country. The Government too on its quest to make reforms in the Basic education system has made provision for a training program for children with special needs. This has alongside helped to create a conducive atmosphere in school for persons living in stuttering in Cameroon. Thanks again Olivia

  14. Hello Christopher,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story, it was extremely moving. I am sorry to hear about all of the hard times you encountered throughout your life as a person who stutters. It is sad to listen to instances where bulling occurs, and is never easy to deal with. It was great to hear that Samantha was able to contact you and reach out to tell her story. Knowing that others are dealing with some of the same issues can sometimes make it easier to go through them yourself. I am glad you have decided to learn more about stuttering along with step out of your comfort zone and look to the light at the end of the tunnel. Currently I am enrolled in graduate school to become a speech and language pathologist, and am taking a class on fluency and stuttering. My question is, what is your next step in regards to your plan on working through your stuttering? I hope that through this stuttering conference you are able to gain insight from others who stutter, and wish you the best!

    Brianna

    • Hi

      Thanks for your comment/question. That is a very important question. With the creation of the Speak Clear Association in Cameroon (association that helps and advocates for people living in Stuttering in Cameroon)and the reformation of the basic education system in Cameroon things have changed for better. Speak Clear Association of Cameroon has done and is creating more stuttering awareness more in schools. Most trained teachers in Cameroon nowadays are more conscious of issues like stuttering among others that negatively affect children at school. Thanks once more again

  15. Hi Christopher,

    I am a first year SLT student in the UK. Thank you so much for sharing your moving story about the journey you have had and the struggles you have encountered as someone who stutters. I am so sorry to hear of the negative reactions you experienced from others and how your experiences affected your mental health to such a low point. I am glad you have found support in your brother and Samantha and are feeling much more hope and confidence now.
    From reading the comment above I think it is so positive that the education system in Cameroon seems to be changing for the better for children who stutter now and in the future to not have to struggle as you did.
    Thanks again for sharing and the insight in to your experience,

    Alicia

    • Hi Alicia

      Thanks so much for your comments. Thanks for your concern. It really makes me feel better about myself. Yes Alicia, The Cameroon Government is and has been training lots of teachers both for private and government institutions. This fresh blood pumped into the teaching field and with their experience has been able to address many issues children face including stuttering. The Speak Clear Association of Cameroon to on its part its creating stuttering awareness all over the nation and even beyong the bothers.

  16. Hi Christopher,
    Thank you so much for sharing this deep story. I am a first year speech-language pathology student in the USA. I am so happy that your brother was able to reach you during your hard times and put you into contact with the SCAC. It is amazing that you plan to make such a turn around and do something to help. Do you still keep in contact with your brother now? And if so, does having him in your life help you to focus on your goal and give you a person to relate your feelings with? I have never experienced anything like this in my own life, but I can’t decide if it would make it easier to take such huge steps with someone close to you or with a perfect stranger.
    Thanks again for sharing!
    -Heather

    • Hi Heather

      Thanks so much for your comments/question. I believe making a decision to do something about me stuttering is a very huge achievement to me already. My brother wanted us to talk about our stuttering when he started making research and attending stuttering programs at the beginning but i never wanted. The issue of not honoring a prophet in his home town was my mean problem. I was too familiar to him and more over my younger brother. It was hard for me to follow him. Its just recently that i made up my mind to listen to him and because of that i am now connected to more PWS and Therapists. I am glad i made up my mind and i am seeing progress being imminent.

  17. Hello Christopher,

    Thank you for sharing your story it was so moving. I am so sorry it was so hard for you in life especially your childhood, but I am so glad you finally have reached the time in your life to seek a change. I am sure your story will influence and help others going through the same thing you are. Your story shows it’s never to late to acknowledge and seek the help you want and need. I also commend you on traveling so far in order to have Internet connection to share your story. I wish you all the best in every area of your life.

    • Hi Aellis2

      Thanks a lot for your touching comments. My heart desire is that no one suffers as i did and should open up to reap the blessings of stuttering that i have come to know. That’s right, its never too late for anything.

  18. Dear Christopher,

    My name is Lauren and I am a graduate student studying in the field of speech-language pathology. Reading your post broke my heart to hear of the struggles you and your family went through. It makes me sick to my stomach to think of a school system treating a child that way. I am so sorry to hear you never had a support system when you desperately needed it as a young child. I cannot imagine going through life never knowing your purpose in the world and going through it alone so far from your family. Please know there are more people out here supporting you and all those who stutter than you know of. There are so many encouraging support systems that those have listed in the postings above. Please find those who you can rely on because you are not alone!

    Thank you for sharing your powerful story, I am so glad you have found others you can relate to!
    Lauren

    • Hi Lauren

      Yours words have made me cry. Tears of joy how much i found you right in my shoe. Thanks a million times for your encouraging words. I have found a loving family. Its true i am no longer alone and its never too late.

      Thanks again Lauren. All the best in your studies.

  19. Hello Mr. Bongmoyong,
    Thank you for sharing your story. It is a very moving story and really gave me perspective on all of the effects stuttering can have on a person. It is really inspiring that you are making such positive changes in your life. It is great that Samantha reached out to you and shared her story with you, as it is nice to know that other people have similar experiences. I am a speech language pathology graduate student and I think school has such an impact on a person’s life. My question is, do you think that your school, teachers in particular, could have been more understanding and accommodating and that could have altered your view on school?

    • Hi

      Thanks for your comments and question. I am really grateful. Yes, if teachers could stop exposing us to teasing and listen to us and perhaps talk to the class that we are what we are and have the right to respect and dignity as others and that we are just victims of circumstances as can happen to anybody even their up-springs it could have been a solace. When my brother was given 10 whips on his buts in a very very cold morning of below 30 degrees just because he could not defend himself of a false accusation, it break my heart. My brother narrated the story to me and just for me to notice he had nothing to do with what he was accused of. This was so horrible.

      To me School was worst than a prison.

  20. Christopher,

    You have a very powerful story to share. I had tears in my eyes reading about your horrific experiences. Obviously, you are incredibly special to have overcome so much and wish to now reach out to others. My understanding is that you are located in Cameroon, while I am not sure how much you travel I wanted to put you in touch with a US based non-profit who travels to Kenya (I know quite distances from you) just in case you were looking for other opportunities or organizations that are working to assist individuals with speech disorders, they may even know of another organization closer to you. The organization is Yellow House Children Services

    http://www.yellowhousechildrens.org

    I hope this connection is useful to you and may lead to new and exciting relationships and your story can reach even more individuals.

    Blessings to you!
    Cynthia

  21. Christopher,
    First of all thank you for sharing your story. It takes a lot of courage to be able to discuss all of the hard times that you went through, as a result of stuttering. Your story will not only bring hope to others in knowing that they are not alone, but it will aso encourage other individuals who stutter to seek help. Your story is the “Samantha” to others. I am sincerely happy that you took the steps forward to overcome your fears and can only wish you the best in all of your future endeavors.
    I am currently in a Voice and Fluency class im my post-bac program for speech pathology and I am fascinated on the subject. I recently attended 18th Annual Fullerton Fluency Conference and something that stood out to me was that simply speaking about stuttering and calling it by its name instead of saying fluency, can take a weight off an individual’s shoulders. Once again, congratulations on your “coming out of you shell”, and never give up; you are not alone!

    Best,
    Lisette Garcia V.

  22. Hi Christopher

    I haven’t had time to comment to other papers, but your paper really touched my heart, so I can’t let the ISAD conference pass without commenting.

    What a journey you made. I am a person who stutters and know the struggle you’ve been through. I too was teased and bullied, was told I wasn’t good enough, discourage to study or go for my dream job and I even became suicidal. It took me 27 years to find out I was not alone, and my life has never been the same.

    I am so happy you too found the stuttering community and that I has changed your mindset. I so hope you find your Stuttering Pride, as we are all super heroes, having to jump over our every day hurdles, but doing it anyway. This conference will soon shut down, but I hope you at least find time to read my article on http://isad.isastutter.org/isad-2016/papers-presented-by-2016/stories-and-experiences-with-stuttering-by-pws/proud-of-me-finally-anita-blom/ and find your pride. And your voice to pass it forward to those who still are where you were. As especially in countries like yours, people need to learn more about stuttering and find out they are not alone.

    I am really impressed by your struggle and being so open to talk about it. I wish you Stuttering Pride and welcome you to our stuttering family.

    Keep talking!

    Kindly, Anita Blom